how my madness began.

[bellystabs]

I apologize. I didn't see anything mentioned anywhere about posting in an existing topic or starting a new one.

No need to apologize, Jerry. As long as a thread isn't locked, you can post a reply to it, regardless of how old it is or who wrote it. There have only been a handful of people that have ever been banned in this forum, and one of the most notorious of them all, Geno, still has several threads open. The subject of his last thread is called "A True Pussy Shooting Poll" if you want to vote on it. You might even break the tie on that particular poll, but I won't campaign too hard for your vote for #4... lol. :-)

[bellystabs]

And in keeping with the original topic, my "awakening" began about the same age as yours, Jerry. I was strangely terrified, and simultaneously enthralled, when I first saw Psycho on TV.

[smudger]

I apologize. I didn't see anything mentioned anywhere about posting in an existing topic or starting a new one.

Certainly you could have authored your own thread on the subject, Jerry, but, equally, there isn't any reason why you shouldn't have added to the existing one on the subject, even if it has not been active for a while... you must have done a good bit of research to find it at all!

Yes, the OP was subsequently banned, but, unlike some forums I could mention, that does not mean that records of him are obliterated... this was certainly one of his better efforts and is still relevant.

So bottom line you did nothing wrong, if the thread isn't locked you are free to add to it.

Moderator Smudger

[Bluestone]

Hey Jerry,

Thanks for sharing. As the owner of FF, I can confirm Moderator Smudger's advice. I got your report wherein to requested the deletion of your post, because you thought it was posted on the wrong thread, but it wasn't. You don't need a new thread. You have added wonderfully to this older thread which also has some other awakening comments from others including me.

Like you, no one in my family knows of my erotic death (or necro) fetish... not my wife, my kids, nor my dearly departed parents. Until I became a producer, no one except my fellow message board cyber friends knew about my fetish. Now, many people know, but they mostly comprise my cast, such as Suzi, Petra, Jessica, Kerie, Lena, Meredith, Velvets, Tiffany and on and on... It's like living in two worlds. My normal world is completely separate from the world where I film myself and others throttling, shooting and stabbing beautiful women.

Of course, very few people have the outlet that I have, and for them it is even more important for them to share with the only people with whom they are safe to share, protected by the anonymity of this message board.

On another thread, I asked you to make 500 posts, Jerry. You're doing a great job so far.

Blue

[Jerry]

Thanks for the replies everyone.

Nyghtfall, some forums prefer posting in an existing topic if the post is going to be relevant, on the other hand some forums prefer new posts if an exiting topic is X days old. So the real question now is... When is it no longer acceptable to have necro play with the dead ... threads? :D

Bellystabs, yes I voted in the poll and broke the tie. Sorry, I had to vote #2 but I only like it done a certain way. So far my favorite was a video that was on youtube months back titled "Woman death 25" that has since been removed where the actress takes 2 crossbow bolts down low. I should post a screencap of the actor & actress, but the shooter's voice sounds like its the guy in KHP videos. I'd like to see if there is a full version available. I'll post it later since I'm about to leave for awhile. Also horror movies didnt really "do it" for me since I find pretty much most of them highly predictable to the point in which I have no feeling for the victims. "You dumb-ass! you deserve to die for being stoopid!" When I start commentating on a movie or TV show it has lost me and, I'll sit and heckle the *characters* but if there's other people watching too, I'll walk off and do other stuff as not to disturb them. I have to really be in a certain mood before I can watch a horror movie. The last "horror" movie I seen that I did enjoy a bit of was "The Cave", I think it was called. As absurd as some of it is, I do enjoy a bit of the zombie fare. C'mon zombies, whats not to love. :)

smudger, I usually prefer posting to an existing thread providing its not half the age of whatever forum its on or if half of the participants are banned. I've seen this occur a few times elsewhere. When my "forum" was slightly active whenever I banned & deleted someone I used an in-house script to delete the user and rename and re associate all of that users post to an unregistered guests account but with their username. PHPBB2 delete function wasn't very robust when you deleted someone as all of the user's post would be "Anonymous" which would make old posts hard to follow if that user was quoted or otherwise.

Bluestone, noted for future reference. :) So far the only people that know about mine are the people who read my post. I've never told anyone else about this even though I have referenced "snuff" when discussing movies & effects since that is also something I've have an interest in - the stuff that goes on behind the cameras and in the editing room. I think I'm one of the few people who will sit and watch an hour long "how its made" documentary. Hell I sat and watched all the behind the scenes and "how we made" on the Avatar bluray special edition in one sitting. Imagine what one could do with Cameron's "virtual camera" in this niche... Anyway, you are indeed in great company which I'm sure many people are envious of. Now I just have a few hundred more posts to do to get 500.

[Egeek]

for me I dont think it was a movie but I think a old computer game. called duke nukem. miss that game. I remember these scenes in the game where you would come across these women with just a bra and panties on attached to a alien pod I think. I think it somehow triggered my women in peril fantasies and didnt know it at the time. I was in middle school and puberty began. I think its about imagination combining with horror. they seem to go good together. Also my love for womens legs in pantyhose or stockings began right around the same time too. Also I think I liked horror when I was in elementary school as well. Remembering picking up the book that has those old scary stories in it. Like the hook. Through my searches I came across the community of the erotic death fetish. While at a previous job of mine I used to write stories inside a little notebook and read them in the bathroom. As time has passed I love horror movies more. I love to write more. I get off on my own imagination. My fetishes and imagination molded together.

[Jerry]

Duke Nukem. Awesome game series! If you still own Duke Nukem 3D, there are newer executable files available that will let you play on modern machines. Sadly, the copy I have doesn't support multiplayer.

[Egeek]

Duke Nukem. Awesome game series! If you still own Duke Nukem 3D, there are newer executable files available that will let you play on modern machines. Sadly, the copy I have doesn't support multiplayer.

Looks too much of a pain in the ass to find a way to play it on a modern machine I noticed. I did some research on it. I used to have the game for my old n64 system. probably would be easier to get it for the emulator. I miss some of the old games that would be hard to play on the newer machines. also like midtown madness. Oregon trail. sim city. Anyways duke nukem is part of how my madness began. Probably the only one that owned that game and had that effect on the imagination. oh well.