What was your first exposure to this community?

[mikedark]

For exposure to this community....hmmm...I know I came here through Dead Skirts, but I can't recall if I tried to join here before (maybe under a different name at the time) and couldn't get in or not. Maybe that was Dead Skirts itself?

[syncret]

My first was Vicki's Necrobabe Home Page. I'd been turned on by shooting fantasies for as long as I could remember, but had never met anyone else who shared them (and had learned very early on that it wasn't the sort of subject you broached casually). On a whim, the idea occurred to me that if there were other people into this sort of thing, they were probably online, so I did some searching and found Dmitri's page and Vicki's. Vicki's page especially was a revelation to me. Not only was there someone else who shared these fantasies, but it was a woman. I think on some level I'd always been conflicted about these fantasies (I imagine everyone here has been at some time) - I didn't think of myself as a misogynist or a person who would really do something against someone's will, but yet here I was fantasizing about shooting women. The fact that there was a woman out there fantasizing about being shot helped me accept that, okay, yes - this is a fantasy and it's fine - that I like to imagine shooting someone doesn't mean I'd really want to do it any more than her fantasies about being a victim would mean that she'd really want something like that to happen - this is just imagination. Finding her site really helped me make peace with the whole thing, and accept that I could just relax and have fun with it. That's one of the things I loved about the Necrobabes and Erotic Horror paysites as well - everybody was having fun with this - it wasn't creepy - just sexy play.

From Vicki's site, I discovered Sam's Place, the Necrobabes paysite, Peter's Erotic Horror site, Templar's illustrations and more. For me it still comes back, though, to that first 'holy-crap-I'm-not-alone' rush of finding Vicki's page. This would've been somewhere around '97 or '98.