Do you get depressed from you're fetish?

[Autopsy_Fetishist]

Hi there.

Quick intro and background.

When I was 18 I read on Wikipedia what an autopsy was and ever since then I have been extremely aroused by the thought of an autopsy on an attractive, nubile and flexible young woman. The thought of what the autopsy doctor is about to do to her body, like strip her naked, feel her from head to toe and then take a razor sharp scalpel to her soft feminine flesh and open her up and gut her.

The thought that an older guy who wouldn't normally get to see an attractive young women naked in his day to day life can do whatever he wants to her body because she is dead, is ecstasy.

I saw this with my own eyes in 2011 when I witnessed my first real autopsy video on Youtube, which I have dubbed the US autopsy. There are other ones, specifically the Chinese autopsy and Indian autopsy. Anyway, my fantasy had been realised. Between then and about 2014 autopsies had taken over my life, I was thinking about them everyday and getting very depressed about them.

The thing is I don't agree with them in principle, but they turn me on massively. I have got a lid on it now, mostly, but it depresses me that I have such a sick fetish.

Anyway there is some great content on here and it's comforting to know it's not real, although it sure looks like it!


Does anyone else here feel the same about their dead woman fetish?

[xj900uk]

No, not in the slightest, I find it a welcome escape from reality (where I do have a long and sad history of stress & depression)

[Autopsy_Fetishist]

Fair enough, for me it feels like it separates me from normal people, like I am normal but if they found out I was turned on by female autopsies they would be like "wtf".

[Tkiller]

you might say the same thing if you found out the secret desires of most people !!

[Autopsy_Fetishist]

Fair point, the few forums I have mentioned my fetish on have got me immediately banned though, so I figure it must be pretty frowned up on, unlike more normal fetishes. I figure you can't hurt a dead woman so it can't be that bad.

[JohnM]

The think about fetishes, is you usually don't talk about them except with like-minded fetishist....if ever.

And, if you decide to share....lets say you are on a forum and everyone is "sharing", then you have to understand how people try to understand other peoples fetishes. #1, they try to pair it with their own, and #2, they visualize applying that fetish in a real-world disuation. For instance, if I was into feet, I might fantasize about playing with the feet of the girl I am buying my coffee from.

Well, death fetish puts a wrinkle in that, because the person trying to understand has to make a huge leap into an area that are not even remotely understanding of. They don't have the infrastructure of death as art, cinema, imprinting or whatever else to help them understand. So, now, they think about something real---a real dead person and it gives them the hebee jebees.

So, you would not really go onto a forum and talk about that unless you were in a private forum about talking about that.....there are like 5-8 community forums for just such discussion.

In my 20+ years, I have never felt the need to go to a forum that was not about my fetish and tell everyone in the same way I would not jump onto a religious forum and preach about the aliens I pray to. :-)

Thanks,
JohnM

[necro_phil]

Variety is the spice of life, so they say, and I agree. You're not hurting anyone. And I've found that necro fantasy sex play has spiced up my sex life many times. Women are not immune to fantasies like ours. Some people, on the other hand, are very repressed and uptight. I feel sorry for them. The short answer: I like my fantasies. I enjoy them a lot. They are part of who I am. And I like who I am.

[Egeek]

very true johnm. I can relate a little on that. Anyways I will be lying though if I didnt get scared of my own fetishes sometimes. it is erotic horror of course. hehe. that is one of the emotions. that and being scared that you got a stiff one from seeing stuff like that. hehe. Could get a little freaky and interesting when combining a horror element with a basic fetish like pantyhose or feet. makes a good combination Do I get depressed from my own fetishes? From the fear from them I guess I do a little. I dont know. still figuring that part out. One of the many emotions that seems to come up with your death fetishes. Its normal. Ya I wish I was able to share my stories with more people offline but thats the way it is. I love my imagination and fantasies. I dont take that for granted either. Things get stirred up in you because its all connected to you. Your mind and soul.

[ArcRaven]

I've been kind of on the fence about telling someone else about my feelings over the years but I am solid in my own security in what I like and understand. For me, I'm more into fantasy and the idea that what I'm watching isn't real. I'm a fan of strangulation, both garrotte and manual with breathe play and peril specifically. I like the victim to be bound in some way, either restrained to a chair or some other situation where they need to struggle to break free. Its the tension of how hopeless the situation is that turns me on. But I'm not just about the act, I like a story. if you accompany that kill with a good lead up, then you'll have my attention completely. The fact that it is only a fantasy is what keeps me interested but I will admit that when I see something that happens in the news it does peek my curiosity. Sometimes it can be a turn on to hear the details and I'm not ashamed to admit that. I even make an effort and look things up online if there's stuff that wasn't said to the public media sometimes too. However, once I find out what I want, I let it go and often forget how I felt. On the fantasy side, whenever i reflect, it's not the act of the murder, it was the story and the imagination behind the scene that made it artistically beautiful to watch and then I dig further in to say "yes, you enjoyed a film you just watched, a film, a story with characters who are actors and a staff that put this together for the purpose of entertainment.

Personally, I do feel that somewhere deep in our minds we've all questioned why we like something and the sensation behind it, even if it was only once. (by the way, if you don't think you've ever done that, trust me, you have.) I've also questioned myself in many moments like what I just described up above and when I think about what I like actually happening to someone in real life; I wondered if there was something wrong with me too for gaining pleasure out of knowing or seeing someone else's pain and ultimate demise. it is something serious to consider but the point is, real or not your fetish is that, yours. There isn't anything wrong with the way you feel or what you like as long as you keep yourself connected to reality somehow. You said it yourself, it's the idea that someone like that has the ability to be with a potentially beautiful person that they wouldn't normally be allowed otherwise. You like the idea of the scenario, not so much the gory bit of how that person came to be dead on the slab.

It's healthy to question your feelings like that and I wish more people would feel comfortable to reach out to a community like this.

[Autopsy_Fetishist]

Great replies, thanks everyone. There was a period of time when I was watching on Youtube the US autopsy, Chinese autopsy and Indian autopsy all in rotation.

After masturbating several times a day (which was exhausting) the horror of knowing that they were real women who had been autopsied and it had really happened was too much.

It is a horror of arousal, if anything else. The thought that they were really stripped naked, really touched and prodded before the "internal exam", their organs finely sliced. It is such a turn on to know that really happened, but to the point it frazzles my mind trying to comprehend it and thus the horror after I have masturbated repeatedly there is no more outlet.

But the massive turn on it had for me was such that the next day I had to do it all over again. I think the majority of people on this website are more into "fantasy" scenarios, the real autopsy videos on Youtube would probably be considered "snuff" here.

It is nice knowing what you have just masturbated to isn't real, but for me the turn on of seeing a real autopsy video can't be matched.