My Obituary!

[Bluestone]

Well, no, I'm not dying, except in the context that as soon as we're born, we begin the dying process So, why the morbid topic, and on a death fantasy board too. Shame on you, Blue! Truth is that I was musing about what would happen if I crashed my car tomorrow, or walked off a bridge while texting Petra on my cell phone. Do any of you think about what your loved ones would think, if they found your stash of erotic death videos following your demise? How embarassing Well, I won't be around to be embarassed, but what is that going to do to my memory in the minds of my loved ones? Will my wife think that she was living with a latent serial killer? Will my kids think that dad suffered from a multiple personality disorder?

Well, I thought that perhaps I should write a letter and leave it with my Will in a sealed envelop marked "To be opened only upon my death"! What would it say? How could I explain after I'm gone what I couldn't explain to them during my lifetime. In fact, I can't really explain it to myself adequately.

I guess it would read something like this... "You may never have realized it, but I have always had a fascination with the death of beautiful, desirable women, because I could never get my head around the thought that someone would purposefully destroy another human being, especially a beautiful creature such as a desirable woman. I therefore searched the Internet for an explanation and found many forums that address this very issue, and even producers who film videos exploring these thoughts. You will find a collection of this material amongst my paperwork and computer files. Do not think badly of me when you come across this material. I was not a latent serial killer. I could never ever kill any human being, let alone ones who I admired for their beauty, such as the beautiful actresses in some of these videos, like Petra Morgan and Suzi Leigh. I was just fascinated with this topic, and ashamed and embarassed to discuss this strange fascination with you. I hope you understand and don't hate me for the fear of rejection that kept me from revealing these thoughts during my lifetime. Love, Blue."

What about others? Would you consider writing such a letter? What would your letter say? Do you think that such a letter would be a good thing, a bad thing, or completely unnecessary?

I am curious.

Blue

[jafa]

found this, it is in with my will. hope you like the nice thoughts.

When my life has reached its very end,
And I take my final breath;
I want to know I've left behind,
Some good before my death.

I hope that in my final hour,
In all honesty I can say;
That somewhere in my lifetime,
I have brightened someone's day.

That maybe I have brought a smile,
To someone else's face,
And made one moment a little sweeter,
While they dwelled here in this place.

Lord, please be my reminder,
And whisper in my ear...
To be a "giver", not a "taker,"
In the years I have left here.

Give to me strength I will need,
Open up my mind and soul;
That I may show sincere compassion,
And love to others as I go.

For if not a heart be touched by me,
And not a smile I've left behind,
Then the life that You have blessed me with,
Will have been a waste of time.

With all my heart I truly pray,
I leave something here on earth;
That touched another child of yours,
And gave my life its worth...


sorry if this is to serious.

[tOkie]

Jafa

I don't think it is too serious, at all. I think it shows, mostly, what we all would like to be remembered by...our acts and deeds of kindness, compassion and caring.


Here is a few lines from the JACKSON BROWNE song "For A Dancer", which, most certainly, describes much the same sentiment.


"...Into a dancer you have grown,
from a seed somebody else has sewn,
go on ahead and throw some seeds of your own.
and: somewhere between the time you arrive,
and: the time you go.
may lie a reason you were alive,
but: you'll never know..."



Jeffrey

[dpaul47]

just wondering Blue...what would happen if you told her about your fantasy before you died?...

[Bluestone]

just wondering Blue...what would happen if you told her about your fantasy before you died?...

No doubt about it. It would be more negative than not telling her. How is she supposed to understand this fetish when I don't fully understand it myself?

Blue

[smudger]

It is difficult even for us to understand Blue, it just seems to be a sideways perversion of an otherwise perfectly normal sex drive, perhaps a psychiatrist could explain it?

[Bluestone]

It is difficult even for us to understand Blue, it just seems to be a sideways perversion of an otherwise perfectly normal sex drive, perhaps a psychiatrist could explain it?

Psychiatrists don't explain anything. They listen to you talk, place labels on things that they don't fully understand, feeling more comfortable with pigeon-holing people that understanding the individual, and carry around as many of their own psychological problems as the rest of us do. One of my favourite comedy shows was Frasier, which really told it like it is

In case you didn't pick up on the clues, I don't have a lot of respect for that profession.

Blue