Feeling Guilty?

[Bluestone]

Well, I've always found it interesting to explore necro-related subjects. I hope I don't offend, but I decided to explore a thought-provoking question, provide my opinions, and encourage everyone to share theirs. So, here we go:

The question is: Do you feel guilty about your necro fetish, and should you?

Before I discovered this community, I kept my fetish as a guilty secret, feeling that there was something wrong with me. When I discovered that there appear to be lots of people worldwide who share this fetish, I began to feel better, but the guilt is still there, albeit buried a few layers down. I know that I love beautiful women, and would never want to see anyone, especially a beautiful woman, really harmed; but, there is still this nagging guilt.

Meeting, working with, and talking to such beautiful women as Suzi and Petra has really helped. I am accepted by them, they understand my fetish, and they know that they're completely safe in my presence. I was even alone in an office suite with Petra last month which was closed to the public. We shot the last day on a statutory holiday, and, being a part owner, I had access to the locked building. She was perfectly fine with me pretending to strangle her in a location where no one could hear or intercede. It was like an acid test for me... a perfect opportunity if I was a dangerous offender, but, of course, I would never actually want to harm this gorgeous young lady!

So, do I feel that I am any more sinful than anyone else? No. We all have our guilty pleasures. Ours is just a little less acceptable (and understood) by society in general. Last time I looked, there were no perfect people in this world. So, if you're reading this and are down on yourself, feeling that you are sick or bent or simply strange, because you have a necro fetish, take heart. You are completely normal, because normal is the imperfect condition of mankind. The gay community celebrates Pride Week. I think we should also be proud that we have chosen a safe method of exploring our fetish through fantasy video. We have nothing for which to be ashamed. We are as much entitled to go to heaven when we die as the next person

What do the rest of you think? Any differing or other opinions?

Blue

[kevin67]

Hi Bue,
You bet your life I felt guilty about my death fetish. I was very young when it hit me ,and
I didn't know what a fetish was at that time. I came from very conservative parents, so I
had to hid my fetish. Ther were times I felt I might be mentally ill ,and I am still not sure that
isn't the case.Yet, I have no desire to kill anyone and have lived a normal, if not boring, life,and I'm now enjoying retirement.
When I discovered these message boards I at least realized I was not alone in this
type of fetish. I believe that this knowledge has made us feel a little better about ourselves
and goes a long way towards our understanding of this particular fetish.

[Bluestone]

Yes, I agree that sharing with like-minded individuals makes us feel 'normal'... at least in this community, but I feel that we should not feel guilty or consider ourselves mentally ill outside of the four virtual walls of this community.

Just because other people cannot always identify with us, and with our unusual tastes, doesn't mean we are something less than normal. Who's more dangerous to society, us or crooked corporate executives who bilk investors out of millions of dollars in Enron and other corporate scams? Yet, people put corporate executives on a pedestal and want to be like them.

I'm pretty well convinced that Alfred Hitchcock was a closet necromaniac. Yet, he was idolized as a directoral genius. Are we not all simply connoisseurs of a special type of artwork? I think that we should feel a lot better about ourselves. We should throw off the shackles of guilt.

I came from a conservative upbringing too, but even Jesus accepted the outcasts of society... the prostitutes and the tax collectors. I think he'd understand us, even if the religious leaders of his time understood neither the outcasts nor Jesus himself

Blue

[tummyshooter]

The question is: Do you feel guilty about your necro fetish, and should you?

Absolutely not to both. I personally know that I am no threat to anyone, old people, beautiful women, children, puppies, flowers, anyone and anything. Other people may not know that about me, at least at first. I'm such a swell guy, what can I say.

[Tkiller]

Never felt actually guilty. Always wondered if I was the only one, but soon realized that there had to be many like me because they keep making all those horror movies with the women stabbed and slashed, and all those old Detective magazine covers !!! With the advent of the internet and getting to know how widespread this is, it's just another one of those weird things that people have. There are a lot worse obsessions out there. I still feel I have to keep it hidden amongst my family and friends... so there must be some guilt or fear of ridicule.

[Rick]

As a teenager, I not only felt guilty, I felt scared. I thought that having these fantasies was how one became a serial killer. I vowed that if I ever even thought about actually harming someone I would take my own life. I then began to realize that this was only a fantasy and that I would NEVER harm anyone. I still felt guilty and ashamed. Then, about 8 years ago, I discovered G-Man's website. What a revelation! I was not alone! The guilt was gone. What remains is more of a curiousity about how these fantasies come about. If there is any guilt left, it has to do with how much time I have spent over my 72 years searching for those very special and rather rare films, TV shows, comic books, magazines, and paperback novels that satisfied my fantasies. Now, because of this wonderful community of ours, these materials are readily availailable. And your materials are the best!!!!

Rick

P.S. When do you think "Silent Partners" will be available?

[Bluestone]

Hi Rick,

Thanks for sharing. I think it's important for all of us, but especially for those who are new to this site, and haven't quite come to grips with the mysteries of the origin and effects of this fetish. It's great to know that we're not alone. This board (and the other necro boards) are like support groups, since most of us find it hard to share these feelings even with close loved ones.

As for "Silent Partners", I will try to get to it once I've posted all of the Petra customs (there are about 6 of them). After that, I will intersperse my other lovely ladies with the Petra videos. I have so much good material in the can that I could stop filming and still have enough to post for over two years. Time is my only real enemy

Anyone else willing to share?

Blue

[Mkkb]

Hi Blue,
Fantastic thread. Have I felt guilty? I think so, a little. Probably years ago. Being in my late 30's, my teen years were internet free. I, probably like many at the time, were confused about my feelings towards this sort of fetish. Hell, who knew that this would be a fetish. There wasn't a google to turn to for anonymous answers to questions about a necro fetish. I know that over the years I have questioned myself about the root of this fetish, and should I be concerned. I think that this is a process all of us should do. Question ourselves. Am I normal?? Well, proudly, I realized yes, this is just another type of fantasy. No different than foot fetish, bondage, tickling, or any other of the dozens I have discovered, thanks to that trusty google
I love women. I would never harm a soul and defend anyone who was in need. To me, this fetish is like Halloween all year long. We put on our little customs and play pretend. At the end of the day, I know I am as decent, and noble, as the next person.
Blue, I admire guys like you. Even though I feel confident in my thoughts and feelings about this fetish, I don't think I could ever share it with anyone(other than our community). You became a producer...WOW! Think about what you said. A couple of weeks ago you were in a high rise alone with Petra pretending to strangle her. Simply wow... You really put yourself out there and took a chance years ago. I really admire that. Photography has always been a hobby, and in recent months I have been thinking about expanding into our fetish with it. Just for fun, not producing, and I just can't wrap my mind around the thought of asking someone to pretend to be killed. Perhaps that goes back to feeling guilty, at least in the aspect of sharing my fantasy with another.
I don't mean to hijack this thread, but I would love to hear about what you went through to get yourself to this point.
Anyway, do I feel guilty, nope, not anymore, but I wish I could be more open about it.
Great work as always Blue!

[Bluestone]

Hi Blue,
I don't mean to hijack this thread, but I would love to hear about what you went through to get yourself to this point.

So as not to hijack this thread, since I agree that it is a useful topic to continue to explore, I will start another thread later today, entitled 'The Origin of Bluestone'. Okay?

Blue

[50cal]

Hi Blue, this is an interesting topic. In answer to your question I have never felt guilty about my fetish for I have had a death fetish since I was young (both being killed myself and about women being killed). The only I thing I have found hard at times is accepting that there are few out there to talk about it with, in fact this is the only time I have really said anything about it. I was glad to stumble across this sort of thing whilst paroosing the net one day, admittedly hoping to find just this sort of thing. I only wish I was as fortunate as you to have a woman to share it with, but that's life. I have a vivid imagination so can quite easily entertain myself although it'd be good to share it once and a while.

[Bluestone]

Hi 50cal, and the rest of you guys and gals,

Yes, there appears to be a constant theme running through this thread. Perhaps, we can explore that here too. Firstly, whether you feel guilty or not about your fetish, do you feel lonely or alienated at times because you feel that you can't share your fetish with loved ones? It's great to have this community, so that we can share with one another, but how do you approach this topic with your friends and significant others?

Well, having asked the question, I guess I'd better go first

50cal refers to me having a woman with whom I can share my fetish. Well, that's true, but it's not my significant other. She has no clue about my fetish, because I think it would freak her out. The woman who I can share this subject with is Suzi, as well as Velvet and many of my other actors and actresses, but mostly Suzi. She is a good friend and confidant, and is very open-minded. She's come to understand that people like us are far from dangerous, and realizes that everyone has fetishes, including sexual fetishes, to one extent or another... and that most are harmless. It is very nice to have this message board where we can share, but it is a hundred times better to be able to share in person with a good friend.

Well, that's my two cents worth. Anybody else care to comment on either the main subject or this sub-topic?

Blue

[slasherdude9999]

Should I feel guilty? I don't think so. I think, and I have no psychological training as a basis to say this but I will anyway, that if you feel guilty about something you can't change it'll hurt you. In this case I think it may hurt those around you too. As long as you keep it in the realm of fantasy it's all good. I'm done feeling guilty. I finished with that a few years ago when I discovered this community. Before that I would be very secretive and would feel very guilty. And I would destroy much of my stock of materials (vcr tapes, drawings, etc) and would vow over and over again that I would change and be a better person. I'm a better person now that I've embraced who I am.

[Nightposter]

I felt guilty at first ( when I was much younger ) but in my 20's I started meeting my "playmates", some of whom had fantasies far beyond mine, and I realized I wasn't alone.

My wife knows and has seen ( and I think might check up on me at DA) my art , when we first got involved, she played along, but these days, well...we are older, and both of us have had back injuries from our work, she can't play any more, and still wonders why I can't just stop and walk away from all this. :(

[SaucySailor]

Hi, Blue
I don't have constant feeling for this fetish but sometimes it's such a feeling! And it continues from my very early years. Could you believe, I read Shakespear's tragedies mostly for the death scenes. I never felt guilty but now I'm kinda afraid of myself: the cases of exciting for this fetish came more often. Ain't that strange? I am not a maniac or necrophil but... death fetish! I just reassure myself with a fact that real death pictures does not excite me anymore (excepting some that look like movie scenes )

[Bluestone]

Yes, it's the fantasy death scenes that really excite people with this fetish, not real death scenes. Real death is ugly and a turn-off, but the fantasy death of a hot woman can be so very erotic!

Blue